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So 2019 is over. I figured I'd ramble to myself for a bit but it's been special to me in a few regards.

First off, and I know this is a newsflash to most of you, but I have some fairly problematic self-esteem and self-worth issues. I know, its unheard of that people interested in macrophilia who fantasizing at being at the mercy (or lack thereof) of a towering beautiful woman have such problems but lo, here I sit. I've always found refuge online with these issues because most people know what I'm going through and are exceptionally compassionate even if we're unable to be such to ourselves. To you all (and you know who you are) I value having met you this very, very much. It always amazes me how much talking to someone helps any problem you're facing even if that person is thousands of miles away and just about the only connection you share is the type of smut that excites you.

 In real life I don't have many outlets. I work a stressful job in operations and my company is primarily telework and as a result I get to spend time with my coworkers too often, and I've always kind of been a loner in real life and don't have much contact with people outside of online (non-giantess) friends. I just have my relationship, work, and not much else. Rendering gives me a creative outlet (a bizarre one, but it's valid!) that I've never really had before. I'm allowed to make things I like, struggle with learning how to make them and make them better, and some of you out there even seem to like the things I do, which helps me keep going. These are important skills I can put toward any aspect of my life especially given my aforementioned personality struggles. 

I don't have core and as such I have very limited access to my stats but I'm amazed of the 'following' I've gathered in the past year. My account is ANCIENT (Over 14 years) and I'm unable to see how many followers I had before I started creating my art which is a shame because many people followed me because they thought I invented minecraft. (Sidenote: Account is for sale -- $1 million. Someone tell Markus Persson and for a small sum he can stop me embarrassing him) But I've easily gained 650-750 real followers which leaves me feeling super appreciative that to some of you find the stuff I put out worth looking at.

Here's to 2020 -- Improving my physical and mental health, the quality of my renders, and anything else I can in my life.

Thanks for reading.

I am participating in Choco-Runes raffle! 

Good Morning everyone,

This weekend was an interesting one but you've noticed I haven't posted art in a few days. I've really challenged myself the last 2 weeks and managed to keep up (somewhat) with the inktober schedule. I've never done anything like this before and I shouldn't be too hard on myself that the first time I ever participated that I couldn't keep up the entire month.

THAT BEING SAID -- All of my inktober entries will be posted but they will be posted as I finish them. I will attempt to post once a day or so but I just want anyone curious to know that they will ALL get posted.

Thanks for watching, and hopefully you've seen something the past 2 weeks or so that you really enjoyed.

I'm participating in YukiPan's art raffle! You can also enter here:

Been a terribly busy week/weekend. Hopefully to the 4 or 5 of you actually watching I'll have something new out today.